Walau di mana pun :')

Assalamualaikum, semua... 

Ape khabar? Lame kan kite tak update belog ni?

Mintak maaf sgt2 la ye...

Tengah serabut2 mcm ni, ade mid-sem lagi, 

susah sikit nk update2 ni...

Tp sye mmg ade niat nk update, lgi2 pasal bdak2 MSU ni...

Mcm2 rpenye y dah jd dalam mse 2 bln lebih sye kat sni.

Mesti korg prasan kan, what's with my sad tone?

Haah, ade sikit la nada tu...

Nk deny pun x boleh, so, admit jelah...

Bukan sbb nk cite pasal bdak MSU tu jd sedih, tp mmg tibe2 

je aura sedih tu dtg, not really my fault, kan?

The real deal y nk ckp kat sni snanye nk crite psl hikmah 

sye msk MSU Shah Alam ni...

Yes, after all the while I complained btape susah and 

peritnye msk MSU ni and everything, at last ade jugak 

nak admit, ade jugak hikmah sye msk sni...

Itulah, sape sruh persoalkan tindakan Allah?

Dia dah tntukan sume pjalanan hdup kite, kenape nk 

persoalkan jugak? 

Then, amik! trus Allah tnjukkan, kenape Dia buat 

ape yg Dia nk buat tu kat kite.

Mse dekat MSU ni kan, just like any other place, 

satu per satu problem2 tu dtg...

First, Allah gave me lots of problems regarding friends, 

takde kwn la, rindu kwn lame lah, apelah...

Lepas tu bersungguh ingat kat Allah, mintak mcm2 kat Dia...

Akhirnye dptla jugak ape yang sye dok mintak, alhamdulillah!!!

One problem settled.

Lepas tu, dah happy dgn kwn2, pegi makan together, pegi solat skali,

duduk kat kelas skali, buat assignment skali,

....Allah, ade lagi problem...

*stops and thinks*

Kenape ade lagi problem ni? 

Sebab lpas dpt ape y sye nk td, hmm, mkin lupe kat Allah, 

pdhal Allah tulah y tlg sye awal2 tu kan?

Itulah manusia, astaghfirullah...

Dpt je ape y kite nk, hmph, lupe diri trus tu ha.

well, I don't know bout u guys, but me, yeah. It happens.

Time2 mcm tu lah, ya Allah, bru nk menyesal...

bru nk ingat kat Allah blk :'(

tak ke jahat mcm tu? Astaghfirullah...

Hey hey, tak baik tau mcm tu,

kalau awak sme mcm sye, meh kite brubah siket...

Allah slalu ade ngan kite, tlg kite bile kite mntk, bg ape y kite nk,

 dgr ape kite nk ckp, lyn je kerenah kite...

kite ni siape nk suke2 je lupekan Dia?

Astaghfirullah.

Istighfar ramai2 jom, ingt Allah :')

Mse dlu, bile problem2 mcm ni dtg, sye msti consult 

one of my best friends...

ye la, sye dlu duduk asrama, jd kwn2 sye y slalu ngn sye tu, 

y baik2 tu sume tlg sye...sweet, kan?

mse mcm tu, ya Allah, rindu nye kat dorg...

bile sye mcm terpesong siket perangai ni,

ade je kwn sye y tlg pimpin sye blk pegi main road...

Jd sye x slalu risau psl tu, sbb sye tau, I have my froends...

tp disbbkn kat MSU ni sye x terlalu rapat sgt ngn ssape,

sye tak tau nk pusing ke arah siape...

xxx

bkn nk kte y kwn2 kat MSU sume nye jahil ke,

x brape nk baik ke ape,

mmg dorg baik, friendly, helpful n everything,

tp kwn2 y lme tetap terbaik...

-no offense, guys-

bru la time tu nk sedar y Allah bg pnjam 

kwn2 y oh-so-awesome kat sye mse skolah dlu...

*uhuk, emotional plak typing sorg2 ni*

xxx

And then one day Allah tkdirkan sye jln sensorg ke arah surau...

mse nk pegi sne, a miracle happened...

Sorg hmba Allah y bername lelaki ni tgh solat sorg2 kat 

hujung surau ni, die tgh sujud y terakhir...

I don't know why, tp ttibe rse nk benti tgk jap...

Then I saw it...

I saw a crystal drop from his eye onto the sejadah...

 sye tak tahu btul atau tak, tp rse mcm btul,

sbb sye nmpk bahu die terhenjut2...

At that instant, my heart just stopped.

Ya Allah, time tu, serious sye rindu nk bersujud...

jd sye cpt2 pegi surau sbb da rindu kat Allah's company...

Mse sujud, sye bercerita dgn Allah psl mcm2...

Problems kwn, problems rmh sewa, 

and smua problems2 y ade kat MSU ni la...

Mcm hujan lebat time tu, x tau la ape org lain nmpk...

Dgn bahu thenjut2 nye, sok-sek2 nye.

Fuhh mmg emotional time tu.

Lpas bgun je utk tahiyyat akhir,  

the first thing I was thinking about was,

"Allah, harap2 x de org prasan that my eyes are red n hingus2 ni"

 hehehe xD apelah.

Dah habis bce do'a n everything, ya Allah, 

rse mcm...a gigantic burden has lifted from my shoulders...

"Thank you Allah!!!", I whispered :')

Point is, nk kate, walaupun lain atmosphere dr skolah dlu,

Allah da tnjuk kat sye, x kire di mne pun,

Allah tu ade, nk tmnkn kite, nk tlg kite, nk guide kite...

Allah tu ade,

walaupun da btuka ke atmosphere y kurg bi'ah solehah, 

Allah akn prove kat kite y Dia ade.

Just depend kat kite je nk ingt kat die ke tak...

...kan?

*fuhhh, nangis smpai raya*

Jd kwn2, ingat la kat Allah slalu ye?

Jgn smpai Allah bg problem dahsyat2 bru nk ingt Dia...

Allah bkn mcm manusia,

so klu kite ingt kat Dia, serious, tak pnah rugi.

Allah msti, MESTI ingt kat kite.

Sweet kan Allah ni? 

:')

Selamat Hari Raya kwn2, maaf zahir dan batin...

and

<3 Wassalam, semua...<3

My Dear sayang, Bunga

Assalamualaikum.

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Have you ever noticed, that one person who always has nothing to say about others but gets all the attention?

yeah, that one person is usually the nicest person in the room.

How do i know? How do i, the naughtiest person in the room notice that one person? 

Because I pay attention. I noticed. 

I've noticed this one little flower that blooms quietly in the corner of the room. The smallest flower that has the nicest scent.

You might be wondering why am I comparing this one person to a little flower. Why not a lady bird if it's small? Why not perfume if it smells nice?

Why a flower?

Because I call this person 'bunga'. 

Before i got to know her, she was like this little seed that I've never noticed. She was there, but I didn't noticed. (WHY??????-regretting)

Well, it was a shame, because if I noticed earlier, it would have been great.

Now this little flower, she was so small and timid, she made me feel like I'm a giant. She made me feel like whatever it is that I do is too much.

Hmmm, how do I say this? I'll give you an example instead.

When I expect something from someone, the pressure I give is always too much. But like her, when she expects something from someone, it would seem like she expects nothing but happiness for them... see? 

"For them" and not for herself.

If you get what I mean... 

She's always so modest, so nice, so sweet, so kind, so cute, so lovable, so...so...so heart-warming!

Well at least for me, she is... but I can bet that if you get the chance to get to know her, it will be so for you too.

Speaking of getting to know her, I've never knew her that well as I started to get to know her during my senior years in high school. That's when we started to get close.

Only the year before was the start of our memories.

And before that? Just a few pieces of memories that I can recall of.

If you notice, that's why this post is not the same as the one before.

It didn't start out with a script of memories that I recall to show her how much she means to me... or how much I remember about her...

But it started with how I noticed her...

Saying so, it seems like I only have a few things to say about her, but no.

It only took me 3 years, give and take a few months, to get to know her enough for me to spare her a gigantic space in my fragile little heart...

Right after I started to get to know her better, there was this little feeling that lingered in my heart, which made me care for her more than the others...

I realized that I've developed a different feeling towards her...

It wasn't just the feeling that friends have towards each other, it was a feeling that only family members have for each other... 

It was love. Strong, sisterly love, that I've felt for her...

All those hugging moments I always try to steal from her, the little trinkets that I gave her, the many stick-it notes I plastered on her cupboard and notebooks, I only did all of that so the shy smiles that I received from her every time afterwards will mean so much more than anything else.

That was how much I loved her...wait, no... I think that won't even be enough to describe even the half of it :') 

Well at least enough to make you understand.

I was, and always will be thankful to my merciful Lord, Allah, for borrowing me this little flower for a little while... that little while may not be enough, but who am I to ask for more when I'm not even that nice and sweet to deserve her... 

Putting that thought aside, I just hope Allah borrowed me this flower because I really do deserve her. Or at least it's because He wants me to be as nice and sweet as that little flower :)

Reading this, I hope you understand how much you mean to me...

My dear bunga, Anisah bt Othman, I love you so very much...

I know these are just cheap words and they won't prove anything to you.

But to me, words are the only thing that I can offer. My words are the expression of my feelings that come from my heart.

And you know that, don't you?

I may not be good at saying things when it comes to these feeling matters, but I can tell you this...

This post right here, will remain here, proving to you that I really do care for you, through my heart, my mind and my prayers...

The years may not be a measure of our friendship...

But I'm pretty sure the years ahead, where you'll be so far away will put that friendship of ours to the test. The ultimate test, where I can't call you or text you more often like before, where I won't be able to see you or get a train home together like we did a few times this year...

Truth be told, I'm really scared of what's coming for you...

Because you'll be so far away... which will make me worry about you more than ever and make me want to call you even more...

I guess I just have to wait for you and pray like crazy for your well-being and happiness over there until you land back here safely...

Anisah sayang...

When you've arrived there, I hope you will still remember me, as the most annoying yet lovable human being you've ever met and as someone who's been loving you ever since I met you :')

Thank you for everything, my dear, for guiding me towards the end of the tunnel, where I can the light and a way out...

You've always been there for me day in and day out, after all the "I have this little problem" and "that little dilemma I told you about"... 

You've always been there...

I may not be the best friend you've ever had, but I do hope I was never a burden or troublesome to you all along the way down our path of friendship...

I hope the little stick-it-notes I gave will make you smile for no reason...

I hope the little pictures I tag your name with will make your day...

I hope the little trinkets I gave will make you laugh with tears in your eyes as you remember me and my loving hugs :')

.....

Oh God, I think I'm the one crying here...

Well, I think that's it... 

Sweetie, I want you to know that this simple little post won't be the "goodbye" between us, okay?

Because I'm not good at it... which means I don't prefer doing it. I mean, saying goodbyes to people...

It's like a "see you soon" post, which means we'll meet again someday.  

I say see you soon with a promise that I WILL meet with you again...

If not sooner, later it is...

Okay?

I know posting this now is a little bit early as you're not going away until September, but like people always say,

"why sometime then when you can do it now?"

I love you, bunga :') 

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Wassalam.

Little Shorty :))

Little shorty Nado.

Dah little, shorty pulak. Xpe lah ea, nado?
Eyy nad, bile kite mule2 kenal ea? Form 1 kan? U were in the "Pop" group and me, the "Corner-of-the-class" group. Hahahaha kidding.

Tp mmg mcm tu kan? U slalu jd antre yg feymes2 and 'in the lime light'. Eheh, jgn bongkak di situ, kembang kencut ikan buntal :D
Xdelah ape ngarut2 ni?

Sje nk reminisce kejap mse2 dulu... Kite kenal nk dekat akhir2 taon form1 kan? Lepas some misunderstanding and main game 'ignore n give the cold shoulder' spnjng taon, akhirnye, bln2 terakhir tu kite okay, kan?
Or so I thought la. Kan? Kite baik da kan time tu?

Form2. Da mule rapat da la time tu, smpai rjen2 die dtg my class just to ask for some help :) Terharu oh time tu. 

Nk mintak ceklat, nk cite something, nk tny pndpt, nk dtg jmpe semate, nk hlngkn bosan... sume time tu, u came for me! Hahahaha, x bngge, just terharu. Okaylah, bngge sket. 
Ahah. Memang la time boring tu die cari kite, n rse mcm 
 "aik, bosan je cri ak? ak ni pnghibur ke?"
X, x. Okaylah tu kan? At least die tringt nk cri kite n bkn org lain, kan?
Yess, btul tu.

Ok, pstu x lme lps tu, problems came looking for us. Roomies die sume x ske sgt die slalu dtg jmpe sye kat bilik, smpai ade yg da nk benci da kat sye ni...
Wuuuu~ sedih tau time tu.. nobody likes a hater!
Then disbbkn tu, nad started to avoid always coming to meet us...
Die dah x slalu dtg bilik sye smpai roomie sye yg da pelik. I didn't really mind. Kot, la. Eheh, kisah sikit la. Sikit je :P

Oh lps tu, mcm2 pulak jd.. antre kitorng yg rpt2 ngn nad ni, sume da salah faham, ingtkn mmg nad x nk hangout ngn kitorng, so mcm awkward je tiap kali die dtg... but with me, she was still the same :)

Lps bermnggu-mnggu slh fhm, akhirnye selesai dgn kjadian face to face. Ok, jgn ingt ade any kind of 'cat fight'.. ahah, klu jd, I don't know how it'll end. So then, things cleared up. Akhir taon pun happy je. Sweet mweet lg ngn a rolled-up letter with a Blue rose attached :) hehehe (sye smpn lg)

Form3. Woah, mmg rapat. Syok je time tu mnggila dok gossip here n there. Mne x nye, 2010 mmg mcm2 drama yg ade :D 
Tp itulah, tiap kali ade mnde happy jd, hamek kau, problem mnggunung-gunung mcm homework :/ 
Ade pulak kes jeles meles. X taula jealous or what? Tp sbb org tu kte nad mcm avoid2 nk kwn ngn die, I kind of get it.

I mean, mse form1 dlu, before I got close with nad, sye rpt ngn org lain... tp x lame pun... die trus rpt ngn org lain n started avoiding me when I asked to hangout ngn die. I didn't get it that time.

But there, 2010, I finally understood. So start dri tu, tiap kali si die dtg nk hangout ngn nad, I made up some stupid excuse n tried to get away. Pegi jejauh sket n bg ruang so dorg bole la smbng2 kjap... Why? I didn't want to be the reason why diorng gaduh2. 

But I guess x mnjd. Last2 gaduh mcm nk gila. Again, bukan 'cat fight' gitu. Gaduh2 ni mmg jenis yg unik. Gaduh far-distanced :/ si die tulis something kat whiteboard then gi lunch. Patu nad nmpk n bls blik then die pulak gi lunch. Jdnye mcm tu :O 

But all I did was stood there, watching, doing nothing. Rse bsalah sgt time tu. X tau knape. Rse mcm I hogged nad all for myself. Msti rimas kan, nad? Hahahaha sye mntk sorry la ea? Memang susah sket nk layan sye ni. 

Annoying x tntu pasal, mood swing ntah pape, keje mngaco je and slalu sgt nk mnggedik tahpape. Mmg susah, kan? Hahahaha but that's just me.

Mse form3 ni jugak both of us ske sgt kua hang out together smate sembng je. N slalunye dating2 je hahaha dua2 org :D I like those times. Syokkk~

Ok back to the story.

Lps gaduh2 tu, at last selesai jgak... I cant remember part tu tp mcm tulah. But I realized time tu me and nad mcm da ade gap siket... tp still okaylah... xde lah over smpai awkward bile nk tgur2..

Form4. I stand corrected. Mmg jd awkward. Kat hostel, sme tingkt, so slalulah jmpe2.. tp itu yg jd lbih awkward. At least for me lah :D Disbbkn itulah, tiap kali nad dtg bilik sye, trus je mcm udara brubah. Ehem, tp tu sye sorg je prasan, ok? Hahaha sorry la nad. 

Mmg nmpk pun sbenanye keje sye asyik marah die je. Lg2 bile die dtg tidur ttibe kat katil sye :/ then men bukak2 locker pulak.. time tu entah knape, rse annoyed. 

Mcm mmg nk marah btul2 je. My roomies sume ingt marah2 gurau, tp dorg x tau, mmg tgh marah time tu. Bukan ape, rse marah tu just dtg sbb x nk rpt sgt mcm dulu smpai nmpk mcm I'm hogging her all to myself. For your information, si die td tu di tngkt sme... 

I was worried yg kitorg akn gaduh lg, so I did my best to make them both approve of me. Sye stay-up dgn si die tu n ngn nad, sye still so-so la. Bunyi mcm ape je. Mcm nk amik amik hati boss je. Tp mmg mcm tulah sbenanye pun rupe die. 

Alhamdulillah, settle jugak... I mean, everything was pretty fun after that :D
Hahaha time form4 ni pun still slalu kua :D kdng2 nad dtg umah smate nk pnjm komik, kan nad??? Hehehe syok gila die mcm library je umah ak :)

Then came form5.
That time I grew apart from nad cause she was in the different class and also on the different level at the hostel so we weren't that close anymore. 
Tp ngn si die, we were slowly becoming close. Pelik kan? Tulah. But that's what happened. 
Ngn si die, kitorg bntu mmbntu on managing the class as we were both dlm kls yg same. Siap duk sblh2 lgi :)

Then sjak bile ntah, mmg slalu lah we hanged out together. Wktu holiday je gi kua sme2 n buat h/w pun slalu together. Yeah copy paste pun sme la :D So then, ngn nad, I only came to her room bile nk jmpe someone kat tngkt die je. Yeah, mmg unfair tp mcm tu la. Kan nad? Sorry sorry sorry :'/

Tp somehow, the friendship between me n nad mcm terjge.. Xde lah, bkn ape mcm x fading sgt n x terabai sgt. Just like that. Ok je.

Hahahaha the only different thing is, time form5 ni mcm extra sweet. Tlebih gule smpai diabetes owhh hahaha :D
Mcm2 lah. Sticknotes la, tulisn kat almari la, ahahaha -nad, ak tau ko pike ape time ak ckp ni :D- 

Dah smpai skrng ni pun, we're still like that. Klu whatsapp whatswrong tu pun msti nk tngglkn gmba sndiri yg diedit ke hape. Klu kua jln2, bkn buat pape pun, sembaaannngggg je hahaha :D believe it or not, smpai 3, 4 jam pun bole smbang just with a few drinks n some snaks...

Awesommeeee :D :D :D :D :D

Hahaha, thanks ea nad, for being u all this time. 5 years and 5 months, it's been really fun, all those stupid things we talk about and never stopping when our cheeks hurt of laughing too much, mse yg u luangkn to come to meet me kat ww even when ur house is farrr :) also, the sticknotes yg u replied to me when I sent u lots, wktu2 yg u also luangkn just to pester me -hahaha lol- and the little things u give me on my birthday...

OPPSS salah, the little things are the ones I give sbb nmpk mcm u, kecik :D -yeah I know u dont like being called that, but I like it :PP- yg u bg sume bsau2, -n that lion? Wow, bsau. I take that back, that frog pillow was the biggest- 

Ok so, my point is, thank you, for being the best little entertainment, the best joke bucket, the best hyper kid, the best annoying little sister I never got to have and the best talking little toy :D 

Yeah, I can get a bit metaphorically annoying sometimes.... yeah make it all the time :D 

Hahaha I hope u enjoy this post I made for u, nad. And for u guys who's not nad, I hope u enjoy reading this too, cause I know korng msti ade 1 kwn tu yg mcm nad ni, slalu jd pnceria hari n u can't miss them when they're in the room. Kan...? Msti ade pnye :P 

So jgn la jd mcm sye, nk tnggu abes skola, msk college, bru nk ckp sme ni... ptutnye ckp je awal2.. kte kwn kan? Friends can always share everything :) -ok well not everything la- 
So ckp la cpt2 skrng sblm pape jd. Nauzubillah :D

okay ?

Oh n nad, enjoy ur holiday trip to Indon! Jgn lupe my souvenir ea?
Hahahaha oklah tu je, bye :D

Assalamualaikum !!!

sekwet konon :D

Truth be told, saye nk jdkan blog ni sekwet2 sket..

Tp what can I do, blog mmg utk org bace.

This blog is for you!!!

Ntah sape2 yg akan dimention tu, silalah bangge kejap...

Bukan ape, saye baru je bce 1 buku ni...

It says there, that sometimes, the little things that we do can somehow make other people's day :D 

Sometimes, kite xtahu yg ape kite buat bole jd mcm tu, but that's just it, kan...? 

Sebab kite xtahu la buku tu pesan, startla tahu dr skrng...
Sebab bile kite tahu, lg rajin kite akn buat baik kat org.
Bukan sbb nk pujian or 'thanks' dr diorg... tp to feel what it's like to make people happy..
Macam buat "random acts of kindness" :))

Maybe my blog ni pun x bwk ape2 faedah other than improving my writing skills and just sharing what's on my mind, tp sye masih mncube utk tnjukkn appreciation sye towards others by writing about them.

Mne tahu, one day bile die sedih2, bolehla bce kjap just to lighten up their mood for a bit :))

Okay? 

So just hope that you're name will be mentioned :D